March Already?

I'm writing this entry, though I have nothing to say. After watching Julie & Julia (which was very good!) I was inspired to continue to blog - maybe one day people will really read this! Is there anyone out there reading this?

So, maybe I'll just summarize what's been going on in my life. I think last time I talked, I was writing about how lonely I had been feeling. This is getting better - perhaps when I wrote that I was in a very 'sorry for myself' kind of mood.

Lately, I have felt very under the weather - and I'm not referring to personal health. It's more spiritual. I mean, I'm tired, confused, burnt out. It's very confusing, because I don't know what's wrong at all. Funny, every time I say this, my mind says "then why aren't you praying about it?" So, I clearly need to pray about this. I've just been down, and I'm not sure where it's coming from. Now, I've said it, in front of all who read this (whoever that may be...) that I need to pray about this. I'll be sure to update on how that goes.

I have been very homesick, but today I received a care package from a dear friend of mine. It pretty much made my day - Seannerd does know how to make me smile!

I am so blessed to have so many caring and wonderful people in my life. To be totally fair, I've never had to 'just rely on God.' I've always had someone to talk with, to ask for prayer from, and to receive hugs from. I have been very blessed to always have some form of community. Now that I'm really thinking about it, God really pours out love on me through so many people. I am so lucky! At the same time, I need to seek after God more.

As reading lately, submerging myself into His Word will only bring good things into my life. This is a new challenge for me, and so far - pretty much pathetic. I maybe spend 20 minutes - at the max - everyday reading my Bible. So not only must my prayer life abound, but I must also soak myself in the Bible. This means that I need to spend less time on less important things. The first thing that comes to mind is Facebook.

My best friend Janelle doesn't have Facebook - and she made it through the whole Old Testament in the fall semester. This is so inspiring. So here is another thing I am going to change, right here in front of my (unknown) readers: I am going to spend 20 minutes a day on Facebook for all of this week, starting tomorrow. It will probably look like 10 mins in the morning and 1o mins in the evening. In the time I would normally spend doing nothing on Facebook, I will seek God through His Word and through prayer. Now I'm excited about this! I'll be sure to let you know how this goes.

I've been listening to some new music, Relient K being on the list of bands I've been checking out. I'm really enjoying two of their songs that I just bought: "High of 75" and "I So Hate Consequences." They both seem pretty fitting for my life right now, and the music is very stoking.

I am so thrilled, as my best earthly friend Dean (my pretend twin brother) is coming to visit next week. Oh, how I look forward to a hug from him!

That's pretty much a summary of what I'm up to lately. I'm thinking of dropping LBS because I'm not feeling challenged, and a friend and I are thinking of setting up some kind of small group/Bible Study for the next few weeks. I'm almost finished Fruit of the Spirit (final week now), and I'll be starting either "Becoming a Woman of Prayer" or "Pleasing God." I haven't decided yet. I also need to start serving - I'm not sure how. Must pray.

Goodnight - whoever you are.

Anyone?

Lonely

I feel very much like I did when I first moved into Lister Hall in September.

I got to 3K, and had absolutely no one - I didn't fit in on my floor, I didn't really know anyone in Edmonton and I felt so alone. I felt like God was my only friend. That time was very healthy for my relationship with God, and I'm hoping it's going to be like that again, as once again I feel very alone.

I don't totally understand how this has happened. I have been trying to follow God and His leading with all of my actions, and somehow I have ended up with nobody. I mean, I have indeed been blessed with a wonderful community at my church, but I don't know anyone there enough to trust them yet.

And trust is an issue for me.

But I am certain that focusing on all of the negatives will not turn this all to positivity! So, I will let God do it!

Now that I am forced to be alone, I have more time to spend with God! At the beginning of September when He was my only friend, we became far closer than normal. Maybe this will happen again. I did buy a new Bible Study today, and have an old one to finish, so I'll finally get to that. God and I need to be closer: that has been the focus and purpose of all of my actions lately. At least, I am trying to focus on that.

So, I will spend tonight on me, and my relationship with God. I'm not used to not being around people, and maybe this is what I'm called to be doing right now!

And maybe this is a time for me to meet new people, and try and trust them. Maybe I am supposed to be working on my trust issues. It's hard to imagine that, after being pushed away by two people that I had only just begun to trust - but I am trying to seek God on this!

And doing His Will has indeed brought me peace. I am thankful.

So, tonight, instead of pining, I will do homework, clean my room, eat popcorn, watch movies and do a Bible Study! I will spend time with God, and I will relish in the fact that Jesus died so I could spend time with God! The curtain was torn, and I should be joyful. This is an honour.

Loving Him is an honour.

What do you do when you feel lonely?

And so it begins...

My name is Robin. I'm currently 18, and studying psychology at the University of Alberta. I love blogging because I love to write - to express myself. Once a few people had found out about my old blog, I just wanted to start over.

I think that the title, on the shoreline, reflects me: I LOVE the ocean, passionately. I feel like the ocean reflects so much of my God, the God who provides. There are times when the ocean is calm and gentle, and times when it is fierce and powerful. There are also so many things we don't know about the ocean, and so very many things we don't know about God. Being on the shoreline makes me feel like I'm right next to Him, and a lot of my God-time takes place next to the ocean.

Today before calculus class began, I decided that when class got boring, I would take the 10 seconds that I would normally spend doodling a heart on my notes to praise God! I found two things as a result: a) I waste WAY too much of class time doodling! b) Praising God is so uplifting! I had been having a frustrating day, and praising God brought me into a more pleasant mood! Thanks, Jesus!

Last night at Large Group (an extension of my C&C group through my church), we had small group time and I ended up with a group of 3 other girls. It was so wonderful, and I'm so thankful that God provided me with that time! We had a really inspiring and empathetic time together, and the prayer time at the end was really strong and wonderful. :)

I'd love to tell you what else is new, but I don't feel like I'm at a place right now that I can do so. I'm sure I'll be able to update you soon... at this point I don't know who "you" is! So if you happen to stumble upon my blog, feel free to tell me a little bit about you! :) God bless!!