This week has caused a lot of self reflection for me. Things lately have brought me back to my blog after a nearly year-long hiatus. Apparently I can't handle too much introspection!
The last four years of my life have been a mess. I have changed so much, in some ways for the better and in some ways for the worse. But I'm sitting here, looking back on the last four years, and realizing that I went through a lot. Every 3-4 months I seem to go through some kind of major crisis. So I started thinking about causes.
Was it university? University is a stressful time for everyone - with constant pressure, every tiny issue one goes through is blown out of proportion due to the stress of school. The deadlines, the difficulty level, etc. School is hard. But I don't think that's why I've gone through so much in the last four years.
I started wondering if it's my age. Four years ago, at 18, I moved out and started life on my own - which is crazy! I feel like 18-21 are huge "changing/growing" years for everyone. Is that why I've gone through so much? Is this normal for everyone in my age group? We're all struggling to get a start on this life thing? I somehow feel like it's a cop-out to say that I'm young.
Am I just lazy? Am I just a drama queen?
But the number of crises I've gone through makes me feel like it's not just drama, so I've come to conclude that the cause of these crises is life. I mean, I wonder if this is just how life goes. Has my life just finally started?
What do you think? Are regular crises just a part of life?
The last four years of my life have been a mess. I have changed so much, in some ways for the better and in some ways for the worse. But I'm sitting here, looking back on the last four years, and realizing that I went through a lot. Every 3-4 months I seem to go through some kind of major crisis. So I started thinking about causes.
Was it university? University is a stressful time for everyone - with constant pressure, every tiny issue one goes through is blown out of proportion due to the stress of school. The deadlines, the difficulty level, etc. School is hard. But I don't think that's why I've gone through so much in the last four years.
I started wondering if it's my age. Four years ago, at 18, I moved out and started life on my own - which is crazy! I feel like 18-21 are huge "changing/growing" years for everyone. Is that why I've gone through so much? Is this normal for everyone in my age group? We're all struggling to get a start on this life thing? I somehow feel like it's a cop-out to say that I'm young.
Am I just lazy? Am I just a drama queen?
But the number of crises I've gone through makes me feel like it's not just drama, so I've come to conclude that the cause of these crises is life. I mean, I wonder if this is just how life goes. Has my life just finally started?
What do you think? Are regular crises just a part of life?
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