Everything I Know

Right now, I'm feeling more nonchalant than I ever have in my entire life.

I am a sinner, and I don't care. The only thing that I care about is that I don't care.

I don't know who I am anymore. I am so confused. I can't wait for Healing Prayer tomorrow. I need help, a mentor. I need someone to pray now, when I can't. I'm trying, I really am, but it's so difficult. It's so messy.

Is the Holy Spirit praying through me now?

I want to believe that I will remain His child, even when everything I know comes crashing down.

Like now.